This Morning
I'm so glad I got a chance to see you this morning. I'm also glad you seemed to be in good spirits. Being my usual self, however, I have been tossing around all the good and bad reasons (from my perspective) for your apparent good mood.
Good reason: You weren't as upset at me yesterday as I thought.
Bad reason: You just don't care enough to be upset at me anymore.
Good reason: Despite all of our problems, you are still happy to see me.
Bad reason: You were kid-less last night and you got some. (Even if I'm not making you happy, I don't want anyone else to, either. Yes, I'm a selfish bastard.)
Good reason: You just happened to be in a good mood and yesterday was just a bad day, like other bad days.
Bad reason: You actually weren't happy, but were just putting on a front because we were in public.
In any case, I hope your good mood was real - whatever the reason for it. It made me feel much better. In fact, it was hard for me to not delete all the posts from yesterday. I don't want to stir things up if you're feeling okay. But, I told you they're here, and you told me you hate when I hold back what I'm thinking. I don't know how much of it I'm thinking today, but it certainly was what I was thinking yesterday after you called me.
Good reason: You weren't as upset at me yesterday as I thought.
Bad reason: You just don't care enough to be upset at me anymore.
Good reason: Despite all of our problems, you are still happy to see me.
Bad reason: You were kid-less last night and you got some. (Even if I'm not making you happy, I don't want anyone else to, either. Yes, I'm a selfish bastard.)
Good reason: You just happened to be in a good mood and yesterday was just a bad day, like other bad days.
Bad reason: You actually weren't happy, but were just putting on a front because we were in public.
In any case, I hope your good mood was real - whatever the reason for it. It made me feel much better. In fact, it was hard for me to not delete all the posts from yesterday. I don't want to stir things up if you're feeling okay. But, I told you they're here, and you told me you hate when I hold back what I'm thinking. I don't know how much of it I'm thinking today, but it certainly was what I was thinking yesterday after you called me.
posted by Frederick at
12:51 PM
2 Comments:
i am first going to address this post before i get to the others. i have had some time to think about them, and no, i am not upset. In fact, i am relieved.
That aside, i was upset at You yesterday. Mostly because i feel like You shut me out.
Yes, despite all of our problems, i am always happy to see You. You are my best friend, although i feel like some of that has been lost/missing lately. But, it feels like things are finally turning around.
Yes, i am in a good mood today. Not for any particlar reason, and not because i "got any" as You so artfully put it :) In fact, it has been quite a while, especially because i have been so torn up about US, i really haven't been in the mood to "get any" from anyone.
i am in a good mood today because i have decided to be. i have also decided to start taking care of me again. So, aside from getting my hair done, which i am not to thrilled with (but again, it is transitional), i got my toes and nails done. i started purging my house. Got no work done yet(no surprises), but i'm telling You, i just kinda needed a day to worry about me and what i wanted to do instead of worrying about everyone else.
i am so glad You didn't delete the posts from yesterday. And, i definitely want to talk about them and talk about how You are/were feeling, but i am not so sure i want to do it in writing. Things get misconstrued when they are read, not that i anticipate anything i would write would be taken wrong,but i feel like we are on our way back and i don't want to do anything to jeopardize that. And besides, that i want to have more time than i currently have to devote to my response. So, i will try to post again tonight. But, if i can't get time alone to do so, we can talk tomorrow.
Just know, i don't have anything bad to say. i love You. i always have and i always will. No matter how hard You try, You won't be able to get rid of me. (Stalker enough for You?)
Hopelessly devoted to You,
Anastasia
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Anastasia, at 3:37 PM
I am VERY happy about your comment. I am sorry you feel that you haven't been taking care of yourself, but I'm glad you've decided to take control of that. you can't do a good job of taking care of anyone else, if you don't do a good job of taking care of yourself. Right?
I don't know what happens next, but I'm really looking forward to finding out.
By
Frederick, at 3:50 PM
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